FINALLY... the truth.

yup.
the truth.
always hurt.
ntah lah, aku serius tak tau nk ckp ape lg.
ape dh tak ade ke org dlm dunia ni yg jujur?
jujur dgn hati?
jujur dgn perasaan?
jujur dgn sesama insan?
jujur dgn iman?
jujur dgn Allah?

this moment, sedang aku turunkn jr satu per satu atas papan kekunci ni,
hakikat yg sebenar terus merobek2.

breathe....



ok.



well, kata org itu lah dunia.
we choose our own path,
and our choice leads us to where we are. right now.


"Blame no one but yourself for this, lost soul!
I feared it would be so that day we met
Long since, and you were changed. And i said then,
He will forget, he will forget."
Robert Frost, 'Warning'

nasi lemak~!

hohoho~!
arini bgn pg2 ingat nk btungkus lumus ar wat keje.
byk wo~!
tp bukak mata je subuh td, gugu mengingatkan aku pd misi kitorg yg tertangguh smlm;
masak ns lemak! yeay!
misi start kul lapan lebey kot, aku dgn gugu (setelah berbincang dgn seriusnye) decide nk amik je daun pandan kat umah mamat blakang ni.
ingat nk bg salam mintak izin, tp mengenangkn yg possibilities bdk2 tu akan beramah mesra n mintak ns kitorg msk,
kitorg pon amik je senyap2. hohoho!
(rasa thutang budi plak)

aku xpandai masak, tp alhamdulillah, dgn kepakaran gugu dan sedikit skill aku masak sambal dan telur dadar, sume perut kenyang, heheh.
oh ye, aku n gugu dh tak rasa thutang budi kt org blakang sbb time tgh msk td, ade je org benti amik daun pandan tu, xmintak izin pon~
so, selamat... heh.

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!

Chapter 1

One day.
Two days.
And more days had gone but still without any news from Wind.
Earth has been patient these days; secretly watching the world goes around and around.
Waiting for at least a word of how and what Wind is doing in far away land.
She used to waiting; as Wind is not the kind to stay.
Wind is restless, in search of something that she, Earth, does not know what.
She will never know. Nevertheless, for her, that is okay. "I will wait."
Of course, she will, for Wind had made a promise; a promise to wait and not running away.

She still remembers that one time when Wind was uncontrollable; in agony. Wind did not say anything. But the silence was terrifying. It was like a peaceful moment before the storm breaks.
And she knew well who or what made him so.
It was she.

* * * * * * * * * *

It was rather amazing to think how both Wind and she could to be together. Nobody in the world thought both of them could ever intertwine. Two entities but one form. She was gay, and he was more serious. That time, she was trying her luck. It was lonely back there, for she had nobody to reason with. It was a monsoon season. The sky was gloomy, so did Cloud. Cloud was not at all unkind to murk like that; he had to. However, that was not what caught her attention. It was Wind who was always around and occasionally stops by to say hello. Wind was rather fascinating, especially with her. The feeling was refreshing and new to her. She did not know what it was. She was drawn to Wind each day; his presence made her heart felt intact.
It took her several years to realise that she needed Wind. She was afraid, not knowing what to do. She might be wrong about her feeling; it might not be the same with him, but she wanted to give it a try. She got nothing to lose. She was brave and confident; she was determined that she could give herself a chance to truly understand the feeling.
Cloud was not saying it, but she knew her resolve pained him. She did not see that pain. She could not see it. Cloud was far, unreachable, but always there. For her. The signs never reached her.
* * * * * *
Today, the Sun continues to be extremely unkind to her. The rays are intense; they are smouldering her very bit slowly. She wishes to escape, but her hope is hanging still in the air; that Wind will soon find his way back. She braves the heat, “I will not fall.”
As usual, Cloud is so kind as to protect her and shelters the burning sunlight from every inch of her bosom.
Thankful, Earth looks up to the sky and quietly whispering her gratitude...

i will...

I will live on...

I thought I would not be able to live even one day without you
Somehow, I managed to live on (longer) than I thought

Do not look back and leave
Don’t find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this

If we pass by each other on the street
Act like you didn’t see me and go the way you were walking to
It would’ve hurt less if we didn’t meet at all

I hope your heart feels relieved
Please forget about me and live (on)
Those tears will dry completely
As time passes by

i've spent some time today to read back previous entries of my FS blog, but i'm interested in this:

"I have many dreams, and I believe all of us have at least one dream in this life, something that either we can achieve or not. Nevertheless, dreams are something that keep us going; a source of inspiration, motivation and hope for certain people to achieve better way of life, help them seeing good things in this world and generate energies to keep on going and improve. I remember the times when my friends and I were lying on the school field one fine day, sharing our dreams while looking at the blue skies. Perhaps, those dreams were totally different from what we have now because we, at the brink of adulthood, may possibly generate lots more dreams to suit our current needs and desires. But the dreams we had before were not just mere dreams, it were sources of hope that allow us to have faith in what has been destined for us by Allah SWT in the future. Whether we can achieve these dreams or not, it is something that only time would tell."

issues

hari ni kelas full dr pg sampai ptg..
ngantuk, lapar giler..
tak sempat nk breakfast, even a glass of milk pun xsempat :P

skang tgh kelas CALL, mr S x masuk lg. heheh. curik2 on9. lm dah xupdate blog.
CIE tadi we had quite an interesting discussion on the issue of PPSMI implementation in schools throughout the nation.what do we, as future teachers think about it?

A.samad said came to our college today (i think he's still in the college) to give a talk on national language.
honestly, i dont hold any grudge against those who fight against PPSMI implementation. yes, in any approaches or programmes, we have pros and cons of it.
but to really judge that English in science and math is a pain in the ass or as we often said 'students of rural areas unable to learn and be comfortable learning these subjects using englsih' as our excuse to stop this programme is unfair and an injustice to the development to our education system and to the growth of aour nation.

i share the same opinion as ZAinul Ariffin in his article in today's NST 'Every language has a role to play'
i would like to highlight some lines from the article.

"First, the position of the national language -- which we all admit is important and must be a cornerstone of our nationhood. As Malaysians, we should all be proficient in Bahasa Malaysia. There are no two ways about it.

Second, the importance of English -- and how it will add to the national competitiveness. Right now we teach the two subjects in English not only to have pupils access knowledge easier, but to give them more confidence and ease with it.

We acknowledge the importance of both, and we must try to accommodate both. It should not be a zero sum game where we choose one over the other"

i do believe that, implementing PPSMI does not mean that we'll entirely disregard our Bahasa Melayu as our national language. like Ariffiin said, we acknowledge and accommodate both languages for the sake of enhancing and improving our nation better. my lecturer Mr R had once quoting our Minister of Education to say that Malaysia is 'a nation at school'. meaning that, a vast population of our citizen is currently at school. therefore PPSMI is a crucial issue that need to be dealt wisely as it concerns millions of our future generation. this should not be mixed with politics or racial sentiments. think about our nation's future.
i may not a credible person to say much, but as one of the future generation, i would like to say this to those who are concerned:
dont deprieve us of the chance of learning and grabbing as much knowledge as we can. We uphold our national language, we sustain language of information age. we maintain our roots, we boost our aptitude.

lalalala~!

today, i'll be back to where i should be. bosan. i'm not ready for all that, i know. but i got to.

esok ade presentation, aku xprepare lg, hehe. malas je bila balik umah nie. nantilah, mlm kang aku siapkan la ape2 point yg patut. hiopefully all goes well.

now that i think of it, i cant really go home without some hesitation anymore. my mind will be 'plagued' with thoughts that tormenting, feelings that suppressing. geez. mana lg nak pi ni? i need to find another sanctuary soon.

till next time, penning off.

xoxo.

the first entry

hmm..


i dont know why i started a new blog.


perhaps my mind went off too far today, and i just something to re-direct it.


well, i think this will be the new place for me to let out all my feelings..

ok, a smiley face from nelly to boost up my energy, hiyah~!