Thursday, December 23, 2010

2010

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious n the Most Merciful..

today, its december 22, 2010.

in 2 days time, i will be married to a man whom i think the only person (so far) who could love me, hate me,

and accept me, the way i really am.

i'm a hopeless romantic, and i'm a foolish girl who'd fall in love again n again in dis course of life,

but i believe, this is the time where i would never again fall in love, but with only dis one man.

the journey is yet to take its turn, but i hope, i would live to see many other great things in dis world (insyaAllah) with the person i loved the most.

and in a matter of 7, or 8 days,

2010 would be another history.

another memories.

written among many pages in the book we called life.

strength and courage must we muster,

to face a great deal of things we have yet to see.

i am afraid.

fear that i would fall and stumble upon hardships and challenges.

fear that i would lost to worldly temptations, evil's hatred, or human's contempt and jealousy.

and i fear the most that, i'd lose ppl i love and God's mercy on me.

but i'm keeping my head high, my hopes even higher,

for families n friends worth having,

for a world worth living,

and,

for a love worth fighting,

may Allah bless us. insyaAllah.

Monday, October 18, 2010

nikmat yang tidak dihargai ....

lebam dan bengkak. merah dan biru.

bonjol dan benggol, senget dan tersimpul.


di perbaringan, mata terlekat, rapat.

terlepas lelahan kuat, terhembus nafas yang tersekat.

terasa nikmat yg tak terucap.

mata rasa berpinar, bahu terasa pijar.

kaki terjulur lemah longlai, tangan terhulur tak tergapai....


kadangkala terasa berdosa sekali, bila nikmat yang satu ini tidak disyukuri.

akan kah kekal pemberianNya yang satu ini, bila si hamba tidak menyesali?


mahu ku lari ke dada langit,

mencari gemersik suara kekasih,

alunan merdu sang bayu menggamit,

jiwa insan meratap, merintih.


ash21

2010/10/18

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

ayam penyet, oh ayam penyet..

semalam adalah hari yang sungguh memenatkan. oh silap, sebenarnya 2 bulan kebelakangan ni (dan beberapa bulan yg seterusnya) adalah (dan bakal) bulan yg meletihkan badan dan otak. mata dh mcm panda, muka dh kuar jerawat sana sini, badan makin melidi *sigh* aku xtau aa nk kata apa, bila mkn byk, berat nek. tapi semudah itu juga laa berat aku turun. masalahnya, bila turun berat tu, makin teruk aaa melidi badan aku. bila naik berat, berisi nya x nmpak sgt.

ok, cukup la pasal berat. semalam sepatutnya aku kuar berjumpa dgn encik H.One, tapi terpaksa kensel sbb Faiz ajak setelkn hal2 penting yg ttangguh. sedih gak, sbb dlm kepala ni dh set mcm2 nk berbual, nak sepak kaki dia, nak dengki, mcm2 lg la :) [mesti awk kecik ati dengan saya kan? sorry!] kebetulan pulak semalam dia cuti [agak skola tu xde budak amik b.tamil dgn b.cina ke?? xaci btol!] dan aku lak stil kene jaga pekse. balik dr skolah, settlekan apa yg patut, take a nap for a while (skang ni pantang letak kepala, kompem lelap!) main2 dgn myra, take a quick lunch, trus pi bersiap2 nk kuar. ikutkan badan ni, letih ya Rabbi, tapi kenangkan mcm 2 lg xsetel (pd hal tarikh dh dekat) "haish, runsinglah!" (ala2 gaya najib atok ckp, hehe) gagahkn juga. lewat petang tu, bila dh selesai urusan yg nk disetelkn, perut mulalah bkeroncong. "mana mau mkn ye?" asik2 fast food, bosan gak. bukan elok sgt pon mkn slalu. so kebetulan time tu di Aeon Melaka,singgah mkn baskin jap, lepas rindu kat Choc mint :P dhabes je, trus pi tesco sbb decided nk try ayam penyet AP yg baru bukak (baru jgk laa).

i'm not really fond of the dish, but i actually intended to make comparison between dis one and ayam penyet limbongan (area Mydin MITC) that i frequented. tetibe nk jd food kritik lak, haha. so both of us ordered the ayam penyet dish (ade byk dishes len, tp kali ni amik satu je) ok2, setelah selesai mkn, both faiz and i agreed on several matters (apsal skema sgt ni??)


1) Price

ok, org slalu nk tgk price mkanan brapa. bukan nk kata apa, setengah org tu xkisah mkn mahal2, tapi pd aku, mcm deciding factor jgk la :P

in terms of price, both Ayam penyet AP (AP) and ayam penyet Limbongan (APL) have reasonable price for their dishes. maybe AP is slightly (only slight) cheaper, but not much. so, 1st factor, passed!

2) Presentation

in terms of presentation, AP uses round ceramic bowls with daun pisang for their dishes and nasi putih in a separate plate (different price, not counted as one). the dishes are served without any garnishing, as you can see below.

yup, that's all. and the plate with the nasi, only have the nasi, round shape (mcm style nasi ayam yg acuan dlm mangkuk tu). giler nmpak lonely btol pinggan tu, unattractive! (tlupa amik gambar plak sbb dish sampai je trus serang. starving!) the dish ade letak serbuk warna coklat (dunno what, mcm ala2 serunding, tp rangup - see pic. clockwise, item 2)

APL, on the other hand, serve the dishes in a rattan-woven tray-like thing, also with daun pisang, another tray of white rice (price counted as one dish), a bowl of sambal and a bowl of soup. (also xde gambr, aiseh! xleh jd critics la!) therefore, the presentation is much more organised, more space required on the table but also means more in quantity for each item!

verdict: APL wins! sbb ade soup, AP xde. pastu APL lebih menarik presentation nya :)

3) quality & quantity

in terms of quantity, each outlet has d same item for the dish (except for that brown 'serbuk' for AP n soup for APL). so we looked at the size. haha! AP serves a smaller potion of chicken than APL's. uish, ayam tu penting tu! i found that i could finish the AP dish quicker than i could APL's (xtau aa kalau aku mmg tgh kebuur ke, haha) APL's ayam penyet mmg biasanya aku xabes sbb kenyang.

in terms of taste, AP's chicken a bit dry (maybe dis one overcooked) but APL's a bit ok la. besar sket, so puas sket mkn. but AP's sambal, wow! mmg pedas! sambal APL sedap, tapi xpedas sgt. so kat sini, a bit subjective. sapa suka pedas, AP's d answer. kalau x, APL la :)

verdict: APL menang sket, heheh

4) drinks

at AP, most of the drinks (i think semua laa) are ice-blended type. so, kalau korang mmg type xtahan pedas mcm aku, mmg suffer sket aa. minum ice blended xbrapa sesuai kot, xmampu kurangkn rs pedas :)

tapi ice-blended dia sedap :) i recommend sour pop with blueberry (dgr nama pon mcm best kan?) but with ONE condition: you must hv SWEET TOOTH :P manis btol geng! aku yg kuat gula pon terasa manis nye, lagi2 bila ais start cair.

APL serves a wider range of drinks. i never really tried many, cos i always opted for air epal kasturi eh, tu secret recipe punye. air apa ek? asam boi wit kasturi kot? (itu kot nama dia. lupa plak! heheh) with traces of lime, honey and asam boi, mmg sedap kalau kene time pedas :) lagi satu drinks yg aku penah try, adalh KOPI 3 RASA (tu pon xpasti namanya, aiseh..) kopi tu mula2 di serve, ada 3 lapisan. jgn tya aku ape bendanya sbb aku pon xtanya. but i figure they shud be a layer of coffee liquid, cream and gula melaka syrup. sape2 yg suka minum cendol, shud try dis one :)

verdict: APL! cos they hav wider range of drinks : korang bleh try mana2 g aku xtry, then bgtau aku. aku leh tambah review kat sini.

so, dari yg di atas, aku rasa korang pon tahu sapa yg better kan? apepun, tu bdasarkan pndapat n tekak aku la :P for those in tangkak n melaka area, go n try them urself. ok?:)

AYAM PENYET AP is situated in TESCO MElaka while AYAM PENYET LIMBUNGAN can be found at Mydin MITC area, or more accurately at KOTA FESYEN, bersebelahan dgn kedai perabot btentangan dgn mydin tu. org kene tgk btol2, cos they have wooden curtain drawns at the entrance. kalau tak ye, mmg xperasan.

ok, thats all for now. c ya later!

Saturday, August 14, 2010

blogging tutorial.

its saturday, yeah.. its weekend and i'm (while writing this) in school with two of my students attending blogging tutorial for newcomers. we are assisted by Schoolnet facilitators consist of 32 local universities graduates.

i believe many of the students in rural areas have yet to know how to do blogging. so, this course is very much practical for them to learn :)

well, didnt have much time to write for now :) got students to attend to :)
till then!

Thursday, June 10, 2010

main masak2

sejak wedding angah selesai, aku mmg mati kutu dok umah. nak jalan2, fulus agak sempit (heheh). nak bukak fesbuk, aku rasa dh nak termuntah asik dok maen game je. donlod game pon dh puas. satu hari 1,2 game aku abeskan. last2 ape pon xtau.

then install tweetdeck, rajin sket aa nk twit2 kawan2. senang, xyah bukak windows byk2. heheh. ngadu kat twit, xtau nk watpe. then A bg cadangan suh bake muffin. heheh. btol gak. lm dah tak wat. last time pon bake cake je. hmm..

okeyla, wat muffin ni senang je. prepare brg, campak2 dlm mixing bowl, pastu beat je. jgn overbeat lak sudah. tak naik lak nnti.



aku terlupa nak amik gambo bahan2 dan proses2 nye, tup2 dah siap masuk dlm cuppies je laa :P





oleh sbb guna cuppies yg sgt besar and aku xmo wat muffs yg besar, so mixture nye aku letak sket je dlm tiap satu :) so dia nye blow tu tak nmpak sbb masih lg dlm cuppies :)

heheh. selamat makan

Sunday, May 30, 2010

wedding wedding wedding!


ZAINI & ZAINI
SERI PELANGI HOTEL BANQUET HALL
MAY 29, 2010


:)


di bawah pohon merimbun, hehe



kawan2 yg suka makan dan suka bergambar!


bersama pasangan pengantin



all pics are credit to encik photographer, dan teman tersayang yg kiut!


"Diantara tanda-tanda kekuasaan Allah ialah Dia menciptakan untukmu isteri-isteri dari jenismu sendiri, supaya kamu cenderung dan merasa tenteram kepadanya, dan dijadikan-Nya di antara kamu rasa kasih dan sayang." (Ar-Rum 21)

THE DAY!

Haha, mcm xpercaya dah hari ahad. esok senin. as nani had mentioned in her entry, loads of things need to be done in dis last week.
i had to admit that the biggest contributor for this event are angah herself (u go girl!), nani mok! and azhan :)
i'm not really a handy person. all i can do are things like fixing d bulb, paint d walls, hanging d curtains, fixing d wires, etc. all the technical work. menggubah hantaran, jahit langsir, benda2 yg halus dan berseni... zero.
haha, mmg jeles tgk nani dgn angah wat keje hebat. tip top. so, all i had to do now, cuma sumbangan yg sikit untuk supply brg2 yg perlu. tu pon cipoet je :)

alright, tomorrow's monday. seems like several things listed down by nani had yet to be accomplished on sat and sunday, i'm re-editing the tasks starting tomorrow:


ISNIN - HARI CARIK BARANG TAK CUKUP.
1)teman nani cari tudung untuk tunang dan cari sejadah, coklat dan al-Quran tuk hantaran angah.
2)cari tudung dan kasut untuk diri sendiri :) baju untuk abah

selasa - balik sekolah tolong finishing bilik pengantin :) angkat barang pi rumah satu lagi, clear up bilik2 penting

rabu - HANTARAN N INAI. tolong nani setting hantaran dia dan wat hantaran angah sekali siap-siap sementara tunggu fresh flower tiba besok. teman nani n angah pergi buat inai.

khamis - FRESH : hari ni apple tiba. hari membungkus apple. mak andam dah mula bekerja. jadi mandur tak terlatih (thats what i do best!, heheh) monitor tiap satu. khemah pon naik hari ni. malam nye fresh flower tiba. "terus menggubah hantaran, finalise pelamin, bilik tidur sampai lebam.." bak kata nani :)

jumaat - TOUCH UP . pewwit.. pastikan semua nya dah teratur.. yeay!

sabtu - THE DAY!

ahad - I'll sit back and enjoy the day :)

QUOTE OF THE DAY: "ahahaha~ padahal list yang belum dibuat banyak lagi tu. ade tertampal kat pintu bilik. harap nya semua nya teratur je insyaALLAH.."
--> teringat work flow and carta tenaga kerja masa wedding along :) angah n abg dino are the 'org kuat' :) now, angah still the org kuat, tp nani dgn abg jaan jd org kuat juga, heheh

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Alhamdulillah..

in the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, Most Merciful...

hari ni 18 mei 2010, ntah brapa bulan dah berlalu dari entri yg sebelumnya.. haish :) terasa terlalu byk peristiwa, perasaan, yg ingin diluahkan, tapi tangan tiada bkesempatan untuk menekan pad2 keyboard ni. tambahan pulak pc kat umah dah meletop, dek penangan kilat dan guruh yg menyambar. teringat peristiwa tu, nasib baik sempat dodge, kalau x, arwah agaknya aku time tu. ngeri!

Semalam, sambutan hari guru. yep, hari yg paling gembira untuk insan yg bergelar guru. hehe. tapi hari guru ku disambut dalam keadaan separuh sehat :P dek demam yg kejap on, kejap off, aku tertido dgn sgt bestnya hari ahad malam tu, tanpa gosok baju dan mengemas pakaian sukan. sudahnya, pagi senin, aku terjaga pukul 6 and "ShooT! mana baju kaler merah? baju sukan? argh!" (tema warna merah, dan aku sgt2 aaa xde baju kaler merah. hehe.)dok selongkar lamari, jumpa satu baju merah baik punye, terus sambar dan pi iron. dan 90 peratus siap gosok, tetibe... hissss... baju aku hangus!!!! argh!
kesimpulannya, aku pkai baju merah yg xbrapa glamer (hik hik, sempat lg nk pk glamer) dan zuup! terus pecut 150km ke sekolah. kecut perut jgk bwk laju, tapi aku dh lmbat, nnti kantoi dgn bos mati aku :)

sampai je kat skola, terus check hp, takut2 ade update pape. jap lg.. eh? mana hp aku? alaaaaa!!!! ttinggal! so, end of story bg skala niat nak ber "camwhore" (tiap kali aku ingat word ni, mesti ingat ayien dgn gugu. org2 ptama yg sebut pkataan ni pd aku, hehe)cett.

so, sepanjang hari aku bseronok di sekolah :) berlari main sukaneka macam budak2, heheh. lama dh xbgembira mcm tu. satu benda je aku xpuas hati, sbb xde joget poco2 dgn chicken dance ramai2, tentu lg best!

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dan hari ni, bahana bseronok main semalam, aku jalan mcm robot. hahaha. seb baik bebudak tak perasan :) padan muka, dah tua, xreti2 nak warm up dulu. tak memasal tahan sakit.



sebenarnya, aku tulis semua ni bukan sbb ape, just nak release kan stress dalam kepala ni. journal aku dh lama tak terusik, dh nk bhabuk. ish.. xsehat btol. kene cari benda baru wat hobi ni :)

dan bulan jun ni, adalah bulan kegembiraan bagi aku dan insan2 yg tersayang. seorang lagi ahli keluarga baru akan menyertai keluarga kami. Dan buat sahabat2 yang bakal menyambut khabar gembira; sama ada bertunang, berkahwin atau pun menimang cahaya mata, bergembiralah, bersyukurlah. Allah SWT memberi yang terbaik bagi hambanya yg berusaha, dan sentiasa mensyukuri nikmatNya...

Sunday, March 21, 2010

at the very end of my birthday.

here am i, sitting in front of dis monitor, browsing thru pages of books i'll need for tomorrow. doing my usual sunday nite routine, checking up on necessities for school:
handouts - check. references - check. clothes ironed - not check. bags - check. pens and markers - (urmm, mana pulak ni...) later check. and my saviour-of-the-day; the green skittles (to keep me awake throughout the day) - not check (ala, lupa nk beli).

i am 25 today, and in a few minutes, 25 years and one day :) its not everyday that u r turning 25. and my time will pass soon. i had a great time today, spending half the day with my family, and the other half with the love of my life; faiz fauzan. yea yea, i know i sounded like a hopeless romantic, but i AM romantic. at least he makes me feel like i'm romantic (blergh!)

today, 21st of march 2010 is one day of a kind. i'm not really having a blast, rather a quiet n peaceful birthday. but i loved every moment that passed. text messages, calls and fb's wall posts really made my day :)though i am sad by certain turn of events that leads to uncomfortableness (ada ke pkataan ni? tetibe rasa tak sure plak) deep in dis heart, i am truly and deeply moved by frens that willing to spare a moment of their precious time to convey their warmest wish for me. all these while, i'm having dis thought, gloomy thought that no one really cares, but i was wrong. even if its only for today, only for a minute, i felt like i'm honoured, appreciated, remembered, and loved. really, its the thoughts that count :)

ppl say dat absence makes heart grew fonder. well, i guess it is. kesibukan hidup, bebanan kerja dan tanggungjawab, problems and seclusions, prejudice and misunderstanding; these are some of the things that led us away from each other. day by day. minute by minute. and we thought we dont care.

relationships, fade by time and distance makes us forget people who really close to us. but at times like this, special occasion like this birthday is the kind of time where we seek to rethink our resolves and stands, change our perception and come back to the right track of understanding and conformity. we thought we dont care, but in reality, we do. that is why, simple messages like "Hey, happy birthday mate!" or "u are old!" can really mend the broken heart n then to love again.

i am grateful to you, you and you. You know who you are. thanks for the love, thanks for the warmth feelings you gave on this special day. you will always remembered.

I LOVE YOU.

at the beginning of my 25th birthday

[Today at 03:18]

alhamdulillah, dah selamat menjangkau usia 25 dua jam yg lepas. and right now, i'm still me, still doing things that i need to do, while silently humming a tune of thankfulness and gratitude to Allah the Almighty for allowing another great year to completely pass, and wishing for His kindness to give me another (hopefully) great year to live.

last year, a great many things had happened, yet again, i lived through it. i've been sad, happy, thankful, proud, down n i couldnt asked for more. few months back, i've been reminded of the fact that there is always a powerful One, which we sometimes forget. The Almighty is always watching His servants, much closer than many of us had realized. i had often forgotten that, while throwing myself in the search of worldly happiness.
i got involved with something that shocked me entirely, where for just dat mere 3 seconds, my life cud hv changed. but Allah has been kind, to let me live for another day. until now.

i guess reaching the age of 25 makes me sentimental and old. :) i am touched and happy with all wishes from dear friends, who never fail to send warmest regards and love from near n afar. its a lie that i didnt shed tears for all these (of course i did, i am a sentimental freak, a crybaby) haha :) its a motivation for me to keep on going, at times where i need hands to hold, shoulders to cry on, and hearts to keep abundance of love.

to all dear friends out there, thank you for all the love and thoughts u've shared.

Friday, January 1, 2010

2009. 2010

tahun baru masihi 2010 dah pun bermula. sebenarnya tahun baru untuk umat islam dah lama pon bermula, jadi nk kata aku perlukan satu (atau byk) resolusi baru, tak laa jugak. azam atau pun resolusi sebenarnya bukanlaa hanya perlu dicipta, dicari bila tahun baru bermula, tapi bila masa menuntut kita melakukan perubahan, perlukan semangat, perlukan matlamat untuk digenggam sepanjang perjalanan hidup kita..

some people believe that, we have no need of a reason to live. jangan dicari atau dicipta sebab untuk kita hidup kerana, once we lost the reason to live, we died (literally die tu tak aa). ramai orang yg secara tak sedar, live for a person, usually the one they love. tapi manusia akan dan pasti mati; and when the person died, they lost the will to live. slowly they are dying, refuse to see reality and the need to move forward. reality is indeed harsh for certain people, but having the courage and determination to move on, the world becomes a better place to live for one, despite the hardship of life and the bitterness of human.

we may need not a reason to live, but having goals or aims to achieve in life would be essentials to make life more meaningful. sebagai umat islam, kita semestinya berazam untuk berjaya sebagai umatNya yg sejati (as a whole) fiddunya wal akhirah. tak dapat tidak, dosa kecil besar yang dibuat, sedar atau tidak, pasti 'terukir' di peribadi diri, tapi itu bukanlah alasan untuk terus-terusan bersalah pada Yg Maha Mencipta dengan 1001 alasan. berazam untuk memperbaiki diri terus menjadi tekad yg terutama dan sentiasa tunduk dan memohon keampunan dariNya.

2009 pada aku bukanlah satu tahun yg terbaik dan terindah, namun ianya bukan juga yg terburuk. langkah demi langkah diatur dengan sehabis daya, segagah mungkin, menempuh dugaan demi dugaan yg datang menggugat ketenangan yg ada. tahun ini adalah tahun yang mana aku merasai segalanya; the best and the worst, the sweet and the bitter, praises and censures, how i have felt it all, one after another. i have been to the best place and the worst, tasted the bitterness and sweetness of life, 'enjoyed' and 'despised' the company of many good friends and worse foes, seen many great and worst things, and yet at the end, i am still standing, still being who i really am. 2009 was the year where even though i could not held my head high up to the sky, i could not face straight down to earth and being ashamed for what i did wrong. i have regrets, but i'm optimistic and looking forward to the future and improve myself.

again, i'm praying for a good, blessful year ahead, with countless blessings and mercy from Allah SWT. semoga aku terus-terusan mdapat ketenangan dan dijauhkan dari hasutan syaitan dan hasad dengki manusia yg berpanjangan, insyaAllah..*amin*