at the very end of my birthday.

here am i, sitting in front of dis monitor, browsing thru pages of books i'll need for tomorrow. doing my usual sunday nite routine, checking up on necessities for school:
handouts - check. references - check. clothes ironed - not check. bags - check. pens and markers - (urmm, mana pulak ni...) later check. and my saviour-of-the-day; the green skittles (to keep me awake throughout the day) - not check (ala, lupa nk beli).

i am 25 today, and in a few minutes, 25 years and one day :) its not everyday that u r turning 25. and my time will pass soon. i had a great time today, spending half the day with my family, and the other half with the love of my life; faiz fauzan. yea yea, i know i sounded like a hopeless romantic, but i AM romantic. at least he makes me feel like i'm romantic (blergh!)

today, 21st of march 2010 is one day of a kind. i'm not really having a blast, rather a quiet n peaceful birthday. but i loved every moment that passed. text messages, calls and fb's wall posts really made my day :)though i am sad by certain turn of events that leads to uncomfortableness (ada ke pkataan ni? tetibe rasa tak sure plak) deep in dis heart, i am truly and deeply moved by frens that willing to spare a moment of their precious time to convey their warmest wish for me. all these while, i'm having dis thought, gloomy thought that no one really cares, but i was wrong. even if its only for today, only for a minute, i felt like i'm honoured, appreciated, remembered, and loved. really, its the thoughts that count :)

ppl say dat absence makes heart grew fonder. well, i guess it is. kesibukan hidup, bebanan kerja dan tanggungjawab, problems and seclusions, prejudice and misunderstanding; these are some of the things that led us away from each other. day by day. minute by minute. and we thought we dont care.

relationships, fade by time and distance makes us forget people who really close to us. but at times like this, special occasion like this birthday is the kind of time where we seek to rethink our resolves and stands, change our perception and come back to the right track of understanding and conformity. we thought we dont care, but in reality, we do. that is why, simple messages like "Hey, happy birthday mate!" or "u are old!" can really mend the broken heart n then to love again.

i am grateful to you, you and you. You know who you are. thanks for the love, thanks for the warmth feelings you gave on this special day. you will always remembered.

I LOVE YOU.