here am i, sitting in front of dis monitor, browsing thru pages of books i'll need for tomorrow. doing my usual sunday nite routine, checking up on necessities for school:
handouts - check. references - check. clothes ironed - not check. bags - check. pens and markers - (urmm, mana pulak ni...) later check. and my saviour-of-the-day; the green skittles (to keep me awake throughout the day) - not check (ala, lupa nk beli).
i am 25 today, and in a few minutes, 25 years and one day :) its not everyday that u r turning 25. and my time will pass soon. i had a great time today, spending half the day with my family, and the other half with the love of my life; faiz fauzan. yea yea, i know i sounded like a hopeless romantic, but i AM romantic. at least he makes me feel like i'm romantic (blergh!)
today, 21st of march 2010 is one day of a kind. i'm not really having a blast, rather a quiet n peaceful birthday. but i loved every moment that passed. text messages, calls and fb's wall posts really made my day :)though i am sad by certain turn of events that leads to uncomfortableness (ada ke pkataan ni? tetibe rasa tak sure plak) deep in dis heart, i am truly and deeply moved by frens that willing to spare a moment of their precious time to convey their warmest wish for me. all these while, i'm having dis thought, gloomy thought that no one really cares, but i was wrong. even if its only for today, only for a minute, i felt like i'm honoured, appreciated, remembered, and loved. really, its the thoughts that count :)
ppl say dat absence makes heart grew fonder. well, i guess it is. kesibukan hidup, bebanan kerja dan tanggungjawab, problems and seclusions, prejudice and misunderstanding; these are some of the things that led us away from each other. day by day. minute by minute. and we thought we dont care.
relationships, fade by time and distance makes us forget people who really close to us. but at times like this, special occasion like this birthday is the kind of time where we seek to rethink our resolves and stands, change our perception and come back to the right track of understanding and conformity. we thought we dont care, but in reality, we do. that is why, simple messages like "Hey, happy birthday mate!" or "u are old!" can really mend the broken heart n then to love again.
i am grateful to you, you and you. You know who you are. thanks for the love, thanks for the warmth feelings you gave on this special day. you will always remembered.
I LOVE YOU.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
at the beginning of my 25th birthday
[Today at 03:18]
alhamdulillah, dah selamat menjangkau usia 25 dua jam yg lepas. and right now, i'm still me, still doing things that i need to do, while silently humming a tune of thankfulness and gratitude to Allah the Almighty for allowing another great year to completely pass, and wishing for His kindness to give me another (hopefully) great year to live.
last year, a great many things had happened, yet again, i lived through it. i've been sad, happy, thankful, proud, down n i couldnt asked for more. few months back, i've been reminded of the fact that there is always a powerful One, which we sometimes forget. The Almighty is always watching His servants, much closer than many of us had realized. i had often forgotten that, while throwing myself in the search of worldly happiness.
i got involved with something that shocked me entirely, where for just dat mere 3 seconds, my life cud hv changed. but Allah has been kind, to let me live for another day. until now.
i guess reaching the age of 25 makes me sentimental and old. :) i am touched and happy with all wishes from dear friends, who never fail to send warmest regards and love from near n afar. its a lie that i didnt shed tears for all these (of course i did, i am a sentimental freak, a crybaby) haha :) its a motivation for me to keep on going, at times where i need hands to hold, shoulders to cry on, and hearts to keep abundance of love.
to all dear friends out there, thank you for all the love and thoughts u've shared.
alhamdulillah, dah selamat menjangkau usia 25 dua jam yg lepas. and right now, i'm still me, still doing things that i need to do, while silently humming a tune of thankfulness and gratitude to Allah the Almighty for allowing another great year to completely pass, and wishing for His kindness to give me another (hopefully) great year to live.
last year, a great many things had happened, yet again, i lived through it. i've been sad, happy, thankful, proud, down n i couldnt asked for more. few months back, i've been reminded of the fact that there is always a powerful One, which we sometimes forget. The Almighty is always watching His servants, much closer than many of us had realized. i had often forgotten that, while throwing myself in the search of worldly happiness.
i got involved with something that shocked me entirely, where for just dat mere 3 seconds, my life cud hv changed. but Allah has been kind, to let me live for another day. until now.
i guess reaching the age of 25 makes me sentimental and old. :) i am touched and happy with all wishes from dear friends, who never fail to send warmest regards and love from near n afar. its a lie that i didnt shed tears for all these (of course i did, i am a sentimental freak, a crybaby) haha :) its a motivation for me to keep on going, at times where i need hands to hold, shoulders to cry on, and hearts to keep abundance of love.
to all dear friends out there, thank you for all the love and thoughts u've shared.
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